Sunday, June 12, 2005
It's Been Fine
I don't know how the road was...
For some reason I've been in a very happy and thankful state of mind lately. I've had several moments over the past few days in which I've paused in the middle of something, and thought to myself, "this is so great... this is what makes death such a bummer." It sounds so cheesy, but there's so much on this planet to get into. There are so many things that make people laugh, or think good thoughts, or just generally make people smile. Earth is a great place to be.
Last night I went to Mad Mex with Jason and John... we did a lot of good band talking, which is always fun and productive, and we also shared stories and laughed a lot. Is there anything finer than laughing with friends? I think not.
All these good experiences I've had have given me a thought. It seems like such a simple thought that everyone should have had very very early in life, but for some reason it's triggered something in my brain that's got me thinking differently. I've decided to make a couple life changes. I'm going to start really thinking about the things that make me happy. I'm going to focus on the really great things that fulfill me. On the same token, I'm going to try to eliminate the things in my life that cause negativaty. It's time that I stop surrounding myself with the unneccesary drama that I can control. I don't need to spend time in the places that make me unhappy, with the people that make me unhappy, doing the things that make me unhappy. I need to clean out my mental shelves. Take out the stuff that just isn't doing much for me, and replace it with the things that really make me feel good. I think that's a lot of what this grad school thing is about. Will I ever amount to anything as a writer? I don't know. But I do know that writing makes me happy. And so does being a student. I think that going to school will be great. I can't wait to get started doing these things. The things that make me happy. I'm also looking for places to play (oboe) around here. Because that's another thing I love. I just don't want all the crap that comes with being a music teacher.
Anyway, in short, it's time to stop trying to "fix" the things I can't change, and instead just let them go. And it's time to hold on closer to the things I enjoy, and surround myself with those things as much as I can. Like I said, it's such a no-brainer, but I think it might be harder to do than one would think. I dunno.
Groundhog Day is on. That's a pretty decent movie. I haven't seen it in a long time.
We're all okay.
For some reason I've been in a very happy and thankful state of mind lately. I've had several moments over the past few days in which I've paused in the middle of something, and thought to myself, "this is so great... this is what makes death such a bummer." It sounds so cheesy, but there's so much on this planet to get into. There are so many things that make people laugh, or think good thoughts, or just generally make people smile. Earth is a great place to be.
Last night I went to Mad Mex with Jason and John... we did a lot of good band talking, which is always fun and productive, and we also shared stories and laughed a lot. Is there anything finer than laughing with friends? I think not.
All these good experiences I've had have given me a thought. It seems like such a simple thought that everyone should have had very very early in life, but for some reason it's triggered something in my brain that's got me thinking differently. I've decided to make a couple life changes. I'm going to start really thinking about the things that make me happy. I'm going to focus on the really great things that fulfill me. On the same token, I'm going to try to eliminate the things in my life that cause negativaty. It's time that I stop surrounding myself with the unneccesary drama that I can control. I don't need to spend time in the places that make me unhappy, with the people that make me unhappy, doing the things that make me unhappy. I need to clean out my mental shelves. Take out the stuff that just isn't doing much for me, and replace it with the things that really make me feel good. I think that's a lot of what this grad school thing is about. Will I ever amount to anything as a writer? I don't know. But I do know that writing makes me happy. And so does being a student. I think that going to school will be great. I can't wait to get started doing these things. The things that make me happy. I'm also looking for places to play (oboe) around here. Because that's another thing I love. I just don't want all the crap that comes with being a music teacher.
Anyway, in short, it's time to stop trying to "fix" the things I can't change, and instead just let them go. And it's time to hold on closer to the things I enjoy, and surround myself with those things as much as I can. Like I said, it's such a no-brainer, but I think it might be harder to do than one would think. I dunno.
Groundhog Day is on. That's a pretty decent movie. I haven't seen it in a long time.
We're all okay.
